SOUL SEARCH

As I was searching a thought ran across my mind - my heart was irredeemable and my soul was the last part of myself I could save. When you lose your heart, you can still exist but when you lose your soul, you are nothing but a dead plant.

My soul had escaped my body. I stood and watched myself from behind as I tried to retrieve it. It felt like my body had split into two. Split between the conscious and the subconscious self. The subconscious self tried to communicate and guide my conscious body but it couldn’t hear. It was as if I had travelled back in time to save myself but it was pointless. I watched and hoped this time I would make the right decisions. I walked further into the forest as I searched for my lost soul, not knowing it was right behind me. As I was searching a thought ran across my mind – my heart was irredeemable and my soul was the last part of myself I could save. When you lose your heart, you can still exist but when you lose your soul, you are nothing but a dead plant. No amount of watering can bring you back, the numbness leaves you praying to feel pain. The worst part is not knowing how to differentiate between happiness and sadness. You just feel…nothing. I continued searching for my soul with little regard for the lost heart. Just then something ran past in a flash and I was so sure it was my soul. I chased after my conscious body as it chased what it thought was my soul. We got to a dead end in the forest only to find out it was a squirrel. Why did it look so unclear earlier? And it definitely did look like a shadow of something else. Maybe my mind showed my conscious self what it wanted to see. When I least anticipated it, my conscious body turned around and made eye contact with my soul. It appeared my soul had been intertwined with my subconscious body all this while. Almost as if it could see and feel my presence. I boldly walked towards the body, touched it to be sure and just then we became one as if wedded and that was when I woke up.

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