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I FOUND MY WAY BACK
The year is 2016. I have unrealistic dreams of loving someone’s daughter flawlessly. To the point where she would feel all the love in my heart and pour it back out in return. The guy I lost some time in 2019 has returned home. I feel him inside. My heart is warm and I have dreams of starting a family and making mini-mes. Increasing the quality of life and love of someone’s daughter who may be imperfect but just the right person for me to love on.
All these years I got so close only to realise that I barely scratched the surface. Going to bed feeling loved but waking up to empty messages that show the looming loneliness. Every time I tried to fight for the love I wanted it felt like I was trying too hard so I would crawl back in my shell again. I was left hoping someone would fight for me then we could go to war. A war against ego, insecurities, and a society that makes us feel unsafe in loving wholeheartedly, without the fear of being the one who loses.
Look at me now, I feel pure again. I want to love in the best way. I want to sing love songs to someone’s daughter shamelessly without breaking eye contact. Go into the kitchen and make her something with a heart filled with love. Filling her belly as much as her heart. Also, her mind with positive thoughts of us until our reality becomes fairytale-like.
7 Comments
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Angel
This ❤️
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Vanessa Amakor
I love the newly found you ! We all deserve to feel and experience love without the war of our egos. No one wants to lose but if we don’t fail at things in life how do we learn how to win. I hope you find a love so real and free that ego losses a son☺️. Heartfelt piece as usual Alison.
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Anita
I love this piece. It’s so pure.
Uju
A good read🥰 thoughts well expressed 👍🏽